Some Thoughts on Christmas

As we enter the holiday season in full force, I notice now how lovely christmas cheer truly is. It is so interesting to me how in the shortest of days, we are able to find the most valid reasons for seeing old friends, gifting small treasures and spreading garlands of joy from near to far. Is it merely a human trait to thrive in dismal weather and limited light by clinging to hope and perhaps even some frivolity? I guess it could be said it is pure commercialization and we just love spending the ever present dollar. But these are century old traditions and whether it is Christmas, the Solstice, the New Year, or Hanukkah, we thrive in its glory. It is now that we decorate our homes, raise our glasses to one another, and relish in charitable deeds.
So as we enter this holiday season in full force, I invite you to embrace the season and all of the joy that it may bring you and you may bring others.

Friday and i must work...

Well, as i sit here in my bed (don't judge i did work all night), i think i must update the masses on my life. I think i may have scared half of everybody i know by saying i cannot wait to be single, but I was just expressing my inner turmoil. However, I remain happily married. 

Though it seems to be a great deal more work than i could of imagined. And if i have to talk about my feelings or even figure out what i am feeling one more time, i may just barf. 

On a lighter note, it is friday and I must work. This is the downfall of a nursing career. Once i get to work, I am fine, but the prep for it is brutal. First i have to talk to all of my monday thru friday nine to five working friends and listen to their plans for the weekend. Then i call my mom and she tells me how she is going out to dinner and then i get to talk to my husband and watch him get all weird because he doesn't want to tell me he has awesome plans. For some reason i have to put myself through this very necessary self torture to conjure a great deal of hate for my job. But don't worry once i get there i am fine. At least i can complain about it to you and my patients (just kidding). 

This tirade is awful (i just read it back to myself). Sorry i put you through this, but it is Friday and I must work.

a friend is a friend is a friend

It is a releif when i spill to you. It is a blessing to hear from you. It is a freind that I find in you.

Knowing i can tell you, knowing you will hear me, knowing that you care for me, and knowing that you'll swear at me.

Knowing that the truth may hurt,
Knowing that it is more than i might care to hear.

Releif when I confide in you.

the female sportscar or a pair of thigh high boots

Well today I returned to my online shopping addiction. Nothing like a quick pick-me-up with the click of a mouse and the online credit card swipe. So today I devoured up a pair of thigh high boots in black suede with buckles up the leg and lets just say I cannot wait to put those babies on. 
Either a good pair of boots will help one get through the toughest of times.
In other notes working the next two nights but out with the ladies on saturday and looking forward to it.

Today may be just another day...

Today could have been just another day, but it is not. Neither is any other day. Each day is what you take from it or make from it. SO I may have slept until 2pm today and really didn't accomplish much else since waking up. But I did start my blog. So one point for me. And i guess i am still in control or trying to be.

At 26 it is strange, I am young, still finding myself, looking for a vision of perfection. But while looking, each small goal seems to be victory and each splice of perfect seems to need some tweaking.

While this all may seem like such a winded narrative, there is more.

I couldn't wait to be married; so i did it. And my husband might be perfect. But now i am married and i cannot wait to be single. I think i may have quarter-life crisis. But i am yet to be a sports car. Though some trampy dresses might do the trick. And yet today i sit here with my feet in a foot bath, glass of wine on the table and computer in my lap. Undecided. Maybe you can all take this journey with me. The journey into the second quarter. I promise it will be more exciting than a glass of wine in on a rainy night and it then it might also be more frustrating but hey who knows whats next.